As funny as that picture is... that is exactly how i feel at the moment. I blame the PMS mostly... also the restless ness I feel for still being in one place for too long. Yes I'm talking about being here in Nevada, Being stuck at Walgreens, Being here at this apartment and feeling like nothing is moving forward.
I feel as though It's always going to be like this, that we are never going to leave here and it gets me angry. I feel like I am stuck in a corner, and I feel threatened. I feel like Kellie was giving me attitude all day. I haven't done anything to her. I feel like she is taking advantage of Tom and I. Tom because he cleans the dishes all the fucking time and cleans the apartment, but still kind of gets crap when He doesn't do dishes on Sunday when Kellie has the whole fucking day off and she fucking makes the mess.
Now I feel bad because She pays all the bills, and she cooks for us, and buys groceries. But I don't think it's very fair that her fucking boyfriend gets to sit on his fat fast food of an ass and does nothing except drink and watch tv.... then she complains to us and tells us we need to do this to eliminate the electric bill, or do this to save water so we don't bring up the water bill. I get she's freaked out by this but she leaves her computer on all the fucking time and also leaves the fucking kitchen light on for hours when there isn't any one in the room.
*sigh* I want to move... I want to get on with my life... I want the future to start now... that's the depressing part. I need the future to start as soon as possible so I don't go crazy and kill something. I want to get on with everything. I'm getting my associates next summer, and I am definitely going to quit Walgreens by then... but get this... Kellie wants me to keep the fucking job. I am not going to be stuck at Walgreens for the rest of my fucking life. I'm not a piece of trash. I am better than that.
Speaking of Walgreens... I have to go... I have to work in the AM... on the bright side, I'm opening with Michelle and she always gives me something to do so I'm not kill myself bored. I have to speak with Bob to cut my hours so I can focus more on school and have more of a home life.
