Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
OH My Gosh...
I've been following the Casey Anthony case since it started, almost three years ago, and let me say this. IT WAS A FUCKING WASTE OF TAX PAYERS MONEY! They ruled Casey Anthony as not guilty when clearly she was. All the fucking evidence pointed to her. She was the last one to see Caylee, she was the one who failed to report it to the authorities until 31 days after the fact. She's the one who was partying and doing who knows what while her daughter lay lifeless in a trunk and then thrown into the woods like some trash. They said that the baby died by drowning. Then how do you fucking explain the chloroform in her system and duct tape over her mouth and nose, not to mention the heart shaped sticker. ARGH! I've lost all faith in the justice system and humanity. If this were the good old days, Casey Anthony would have been killed from the second she was convicted. No trials, just you did this, all the evidence is against you and now you die. I know... I know... what about the people who have been convicted and all the evidence is against them but they really didn't do it. I don't have an answer for that right now, because I'm too fucking pissed off with the Casey Anthony trial.
To be honest with you, If you were stupid (Which you are soooo not, and I love you bunches) and you killed off Claire because you wanted to go party and not have any responsibilities, I wouldn't back you up. I'm sorry. I would be the best friend and make sure little Claire got the justice she deserved.
But your not like that, you love Claire bunches and seeing her in any sort of pain would make you feel the great physical pain that all mothers feel. I'm just raging, like I said. I'm going to start doing cartoony drawings. Mostly because it's easier, and mostly because I want to capture daily funny moments in my life to show you.
I found out something today. Besides making it on the Session's Dean's List, I just started taking my Bachelor's courses (This week is week 1 of Bachelor's classes) and I'm already half way through my Bachelor's Degree. :D How awesome is that. I'll be making the big bucks before you know it and I'll be able to ship you, Claire and my grandmother out here to live. Or wherever I am at the time to live near me, so that we can never be apart again.
Tom and I had a fight the other night, and I actually made him cry. I've never seen him cry before, and that scared me. I never ever wanted to make him cry. I vow never to make him cry again. The fight was over something stupid and it was forever redundant too. I think we came to an understanding and for some reason, I feel that we are more connected then we were before.
anyway... that's all that has been going on lately. I think that I'll write down things in a notebook during the week, that way I won't forget anything to tell you.
I want updated pictures of Claire bear!!!!!!!!!! and you... xD I miss you and love you!!!!!!!
I've been following the Casey Anthony case since it started, almost three years ago, and let me say this. IT WAS A FUCKING WASTE OF TAX PAYERS MONEY! They ruled Casey Anthony as not guilty when clearly she was. All the fucking evidence pointed to her. She was the last one to see Caylee, she was the one who failed to report it to the authorities until 31 days after the fact. She's the one who was partying and doing who knows what while her daughter lay lifeless in a trunk and then thrown into the woods like some trash. They said that the baby died by drowning. Then how do you fucking explain the chloroform in her system and duct tape over her mouth and nose, not to mention the heart shaped sticker. ARGH! I've lost all faith in the justice system and humanity. If this were the good old days, Casey Anthony would have been killed from the second she was convicted. No trials, just you did this, all the evidence is against you and now you die. I know... I know... what about the people who have been convicted and all the evidence is against them but they really didn't do it. I don't have an answer for that right now, because I'm too fucking pissed off with the Casey Anthony trial.
To be honest with you, If you were stupid (Which you are soooo not, and I love you bunches) and you killed off Claire because you wanted to go party and not have any responsibilities, I wouldn't back you up. I'm sorry. I would be the best friend and make sure little Claire got the justice she deserved.
But your not like that, you love Claire bunches and seeing her in any sort of pain would make you feel the great physical pain that all mothers feel. I'm just raging, like I said. I'm going to start doing cartoony drawings. Mostly because it's easier, and mostly because I want to capture daily funny moments in my life to show you.
I found out something today. Besides making it on the Session's Dean's List, I just started taking my Bachelor's courses (This week is week 1 of Bachelor's classes) and I'm already half way through my Bachelor's Degree. :D How awesome is that. I'll be making the big bucks before you know it and I'll be able to ship you, Claire and my grandmother out here to live. Or wherever I am at the time to live near me, so that we can never be apart again.
Tom and I had a fight the other night, and I actually made him cry. I've never seen him cry before, and that scared me. I never ever wanted to make him cry. I vow never to make him cry again. The fight was over something stupid and it was forever redundant too. I think we came to an understanding and for some reason, I feel that we are more connected then we were before.
anyway... that's all that has been going on lately. I think that I'll write down things in a notebook during the week, that way I won't forget anything to tell you.
I want updated pictures of Claire bear!!!!!!!!!! and you... xD I miss you and love you!!!!!!!
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
I can be tough, I can be strong
But with you it's not like that at all
There's a girl that gives a shit
Behind this wall, you've just walked through it
And I remember all those crazy things you said, you left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere, but right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did, didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere, but right now I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you here, here, here, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you near, near, near, I wish you were here
I love the way you are
It's who I am, don't have to try hard
We always say, say it like it is
And the truth is that I really miss
All those crazy things you said, you left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere, but right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did, didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere, but right now I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you here, here, here, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you near, near, near, I wish you were here
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you to know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, oh oh
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you to know
That I never wanna let go
(Let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go..)
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you here, here, here, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you near, near, near, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you here, here, here, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you near, near, near, I wish you were here
But with you it's not like that at all
There's a girl that gives a shit
Behind this wall, you've just walked through it
And I remember all those crazy things you said, you left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere, but right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did, didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere, but right now I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you here, here, here, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you near, near, near, I wish you were here
I love the way you are
It's who I am, don't have to try hard
We always say, say it like it is
And the truth is that I really miss
All those crazy things you said, you left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere, but right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did, didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere, but right now I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you here, here, here, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you near, near, near, I wish you were here
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you to know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, oh oh
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you to know
That I never wanna let go
(Let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go..)
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you here, here, here, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you near, near, near, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you here, here, here, I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn, what I'd do to have you near, near, near, I wish you were here
Saturday, April 30, 2011
My boss and I are remarkably similar and it's a little freaky. We were talking randomly about something today... I can't remember why or what led onto the topics about babies, but it did. She said that she wanted to have all of her kids before she was thirty, and she started at 25 (which is the freaky part, because that is when I want to have kids... I don't want to wait until I'm thirty).
But that isn't what this Journal entry is about.
I was going to write synthetic words that mean nothing now... well... they do still mean everything, but it's not like anyone would want to hear them anyway. The words are unoriginal, and shockingly cliche. Everything I am about to say has all said before in one form or another. Tom pointed it out to me, he shoved it all back in my face. Which is something you are not supposed to do to something like me.
What he threw back in my face was the fact that everyone feels the same way I do at some point in their lives (I know this, I'm not dumb), He knows that I am having the hardest time to keep from cutting my skin into oblivion because I have to kill the thoughts of killing myself by bleeding a little at a time. My self control is astounding to me, even though it's getting very hard. I haven't cut in the longest time, although I did little nicks on my knuckle in the shower recently, which resulting in my knuckle being itchy... D:
It is a day to day process until we can get me the things I need. I am trying so hard, but it gets even harder when he downplays it so much. It's like he doesn't believe me, after he said he did.
It just makes me wonder if anyone believes me, or would believe me....
Do you believe me?
But that isn't what this Journal entry is about.
I was going to write synthetic words that mean nothing now... well... they do still mean everything, but it's not like anyone would want to hear them anyway. The words are unoriginal, and shockingly
What he threw back in my face was the fact that everyone feels the same way I do at some point in their lives (I know this, I'm not dumb), He knows that I am having the hardest time to keep from cutting my skin into oblivion because I have to kill the thoughts of killing myself by bleeding a little at a time. My self control is astounding to me, even though it's getting very hard. I haven't cut in the longest time, although I did little nicks on my knuckle in the shower recently, which resulting in my knuckle being itchy... D:
It is a day to day process until we can get me the things I need. I am trying so hard, but it gets even harder when he downplays it so much. It's like he doesn't believe me, after he said he did.
It just makes me wonder if anyone believes me, or would believe me....
Do you believe me?
Saturday, January 15, 2011
I think that the pregnant girlfriend should still be haunting him in some way, like trying to tell him that she forgives him for what he did (which I wouldn't know why she would forgive him, maybe she knew the reasonings and knew it was justified?). And the woman he meets afterward is a clairvoiant and that she can speak to the dead pregnant lady.
I don't know. I'm just sprouting ideas off the top of my head. I've been feeling somewhat down for the past couple of weeks, Probably because I haven't been able to send ANY of my presents yet, because I have to give Tom's mom half of my paycheck, and since I'm still starting out at DeVry, it's little to barely anything to start with. So that means I can't really buy the things I need, let alone sending out presents that are from Christmas. It makes me sad to no extent.
My back has been bruised too, so it's hard to really move, but it should get better when I start running. I'm going to train myself to run long distances, I heard it's really great for losing weight. The reason my back is bruised is because it was hurting because it was stiff, so I used Tom's mom's neck massager that really should be a back massager because it barely reaches the neck (unless your unbelieveably huge and have a ton of neck fat... D: ). Anyway, I used it on my back and now it's bruised. Those little massaging balls are rough, but it felt good on my back at the time.
Steve is taking forever in the kitchen and I am starving. I don't like to go into the kitchen with him because He normally only goes in there for one thing and one thing only. He was nice enough to know that Tom and I love to eat at applebees and got us giftcards to the place for Christmas.
But yeah... Um, how are things with my brother going? are you guys still talking?
I miss you, and can't wait to get started on the story with you... It's time to eat... Steve is gone from the kitchen.
I LOVE YOU!
I don't know. I'm just sprouting ideas off the top of my head. I've been feeling somewhat down for the past couple of weeks, Probably because I haven't been able to send ANY of my presents yet, because I have to give Tom's mom half of my paycheck, and since I'm still starting out at DeVry, it's little to barely anything to start with. So that means I can't really buy the things I need, let alone sending out presents that are from Christmas. It makes me sad to no extent.
My back has been bruised too, so it's hard to really move, but it should get better when I start running. I'm going to train myself to run long distances, I heard it's really great for losing weight. The reason my back is bruised is because it was hurting because it was stiff, so I used Tom's mom's neck massager that really should be a back massager because it barely reaches the neck (unless your unbelieveably huge and have a ton of neck fat... D: ). Anyway, I used it on my back and now it's bruised. Those little massaging balls are rough, but it felt good on my back at the time.
Steve is taking forever in the kitchen and I am starving. I don't like to go into the kitchen with him because He normally only goes in there for one thing and one thing only. He was nice enough to know that Tom and I love to eat at applebees and got us giftcards to the place for Christmas.
But yeah... Um, how are things with my brother going? are you guys still talking?
I miss you, and can't wait to get started on the story with you... It's time to eat... Steve is gone from the kitchen.
I LOVE YOU!
Saturday, January 8, 2011
I would love to help you do a collaborative story. I love the way it starts. what are you thinking about how it's going to go.
I can see it being a dark story, but I don't know how you want it to go. Remember our other collaborative story? ha ha so many celebrities, and it completely left the original story plan. :D I love that story.
Um... not much is going on here, except I've started my new years resolution. I've obtained protien for shakes for the morning before I go to work, because I never actually eat before I go to work, so I sit there for the 5-6 hours that I actually work starving, unless Craig is being awesome and brings me something (Craig is allergic to gluten too, so he understands what I can, and can't eat.)
My co-worker Heath, is awesome. Although we both get swamped with different projects that Chelsey gives us, we manage to get shit done. In over the last three weeks that I've worked there, I've managed to add over 300+ jobs to the schools system with the help of Heath, and we also got a ton of other stuff that Chelsey couldn't manage to do by herself.
She's in the process of hiring a third person to work with us, which will be awesome, because as soon as I get my refund from taxes, I'm going to get ALL of my wisdom teeth out. Which will be awesome because then my mouth won't go numb if I chew too much. Which happens a lot.
Um... I'm not getting my hopes up for my brother's and mum to visit me for my birthday. Because I don't know if it's really going to happen. And if it does happen, well... shit... I'm going to be happy. I want to have a really awesome birthday this year, the past couple of years have been eh, but still neat.
It will be nice to celebrate it with blood again. I wish you could come too. Then it would be EPIX! that's epic times 10.
I'm thinking that the guy in your story should be haunted by a dead girl.... that would be awesome. Just saying.
I LOVE YOU!!!! this is probably a lot longer then you expected. :D
I can see it being a dark story, but I don't know how you want it to go. Remember our other collaborative story? ha ha so many celebrities, and it completely left the original story plan. :D I love that story.
Um... not much is going on here, except I've started my new years resolution. I've obtained protien for shakes for the morning before I go to work, because I never actually eat before I go to work, so I sit there for the 5-6 hours that I actually work starving, unless Craig is being awesome and brings me something (Craig is allergic to gluten too, so he understands what I can, and can't eat.)
My co-worker Heath, is awesome. Although we both get swamped with different projects that Chelsey gives us, we manage to get shit done. In over the last three weeks that I've worked there, I've managed to add over 300+ jobs to the schools system with the help of Heath, and we also got a ton of other stuff that Chelsey couldn't manage to do by herself.
She's in the process of hiring a third person to work with us, which will be awesome, because as soon as I get my refund from taxes, I'm going to get ALL of my wisdom teeth out. Which will be awesome because then my mouth won't go numb if I chew too much. Which happens a lot.
Um... I'm not getting my hopes up for my brother's and mum to visit me for my birthday. Because I don't know if it's really going to happen. And if it does happen, well... shit... I'm going to be happy. I want to have a really awesome birthday this year, the past couple of years have been eh, but still neat.
It will be nice to celebrate it with blood again. I wish you could come too. Then it would be EPIX! that's epic times 10.
I'm thinking that the guy in your story should be haunted by a dead girl.... that would be awesome. Just saying.
I LOVE YOU!!!! this is probably a lot longer then you expected. :D
Saturday, December 11, 2010
As it stands... I am the only one awake in this household at this time. James is moving away this Thursday and it breaks my heart to see him go. We have gotten close, like brother and sister, and I feel like I'm losing my connected soul here. I mean, it's terrifying at how much stuff we have in common. He is my person to talk to when I am angry at Tom. He gets me. He is the male version of me. It's funny to think that when we were in middle school we hated each other, but now that we are older and a little bit more mature (figuratively speaking), we both understand that in order to be in Tom's life, we both just needed to laugh about the past and see the similarities between us.
If that makes any sense.
I'm so excited about my new job. I completely bombed the interview with the dean. She didn't want to hire me after I was too honest with her about my now previous boss, but Chelsey (the career services lady) wanted me anyway and told the dean so. She said that it was still a really awesome quality in me that I was honest. Anyway... my job will be 18-20 hours a week, and it's 10 dollars an hour. I have to look for my birth certificate... it's in my starry wallet. Wherever that is. I'l find it before Monday.
Oh Next week, Tom has an interview for the Head IT position for DeVry, which will be awesome. He hopes he gets the position, but James and I know for a fact that he's going to get the job. Which means more money coming in, so we can both pay off our credit cards, and other items of need. After he pays off both our credit cards, he's going to help me pay for my wisdom teeth. I have $300 saved up, I need another $1700.
Another cool thing that will happen when Tom gets this job is He will start paying his mom $300 every month, and I will be able to give her $100 every month. The reason is because I was having a conversation with her, and I found out that James only got to pay $200 every month, so I asked Kellie why he only got to pay her $200 a month when I had to pay roughly $400 a month. Her answer: "Well, you are paying for both Tom and you to live here..." That made me mad, because I have to write IOU's for my brothers because I can't buy their presents until after Christmas, and I'm going to be late sending presents because I don't have the money to send anything at this point in time. I have to wrap stuff still, Which I will do tomorrow because I'll be bored in between laundry, and discussions for my classes.
My new years resolution is to lose 29 lbs, and be more healthier. I know what I have to do and how I have to do things in order to lose the weight by June. The reason I want to lose that much by June is because My mom is talking about coming out to visit me along with my brother James (Mike won't get on a plane... he's afraid of them). I don't want my mom to mention anything about my weight because she's done that enough in the past. She's called me fat on more then one occasion, and if she does show up and I look as if I could pick her up and bench press her over my head ( with lean muscle, not Arnold Schwarzenegger size) then she won't say anything. My Goal weight is 110 pounds, which is still really healthy.
My goal is to look like this:
Yeah I know it's Emilie De Ravin... but you know She's awesome... and she's my height and my goal weight, so I think it's perfect. Plus Tom said that if I lost weight I would look like her.
anyway... my brain is losing it's brain like substance due to sleepiness. I'll write more later. I LOVERS YOU SISTER!!!!!!!
<3
If that makes any sense.
I'm so excited about my new job. I completely bombed the interview with the dean. She didn't want to hire me after I was too honest with her about my now previous boss, but Chelsey (the career services lady) wanted me anyway and told the dean so. She said that it was still a really awesome quality in me that I was honest. Anyway... my job will be 18-20 hours a week, and it's 10 dollars an hour. I have to look for my birth certificate... it's in my starry wallet. Wherever that is. I'l find it before Monday.
Oh Next week, Tom has an interview for the Head IT position for DeVry, which will be awesome. He hopes he gets the position, but James and I know for a fact that he's going to get the job. Which means more money coming in, so we can both pay off our credit cards, and other items of need. After he pays off both our credit cards, he's going to help me pay for my wisdom teeth. I have $300 saved up, I need another $1700.
Another cool thing that will happen when Tom gets this job is He will start paying his mom $300 every month, and I will be able to give her $100 every month. The reason is because I was having a conversation with her, and I found out that James only got to pay $200 every month, so I asked Kellie why he only got to pay her $200 a month when I had to pay roughly $400 a month. Her answer: "Well, you are paying for both Tom and you to live here..." That made me mad, because I have to write IOU's for my brothers because I can't buy their presents until after Christmas, and I'm going to be late sending presents because I don't have the money to send anything at this point in time. I have to wrap stuff still, Which I will do tomorrow because I'll be bored in between laundry, and discussions for my classes.
My new years resolution is to lose 29 lbs, and be more healthier. I know what I have to do and how I have to do things in order to lose the weight by June. The reason I want to lose that much by June is because My mom is talking about coming out to visit me along with my brother James (Mike won't get on a plane... he's afraid of them). I don't want my mom to mention anything about my weight because she's done that enough in the past. She's called me fat on more then one occasion, and if she does show up and I look as if I could pick her up and bench press her over my head ( with lean muscle, not Arnold Schwarzenegger size) then she won't say anything. My Goal weight is 110 pounds, which is still really healthy.
My goal is to look like this:
Yeah I know it's Emilie De Ravin... but you know She's awesome... and she's my height and my goal weight, so I think it's perfect. Plus Tom said that if I lost weight I would look like her.
anyway... my brain is losing it's brain like substance due to sleepiness. I'll write more later. I LOVERS YOU SISTER!!!!!!!
<3
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