I found a song I want to dance to Tom with when he and I get married. He doesn't really care anyway about the music, so it's going to be mostly what I like. The song is It's Hard to Say by The lovely Used. <3>
I got my monitor and Cd/DVD burner, now all I need is my tablet and I'll be able to make lovely art again. Although, I have to do a final first, but I can finish that in about an hour.
I'm having my HIDA scan tomorrow morning. I'm not nervous yet, but still very much excited. It's going to hurt, especially when they are going to inject me with this CCK stuff to make my gallbladder contract, but not like double over in pain hurt, just cramp age hurt. I have to lay still for about 2 ish hours, and that will bother me, because I love to fidget. I'll just chit-chat with the radiologist about life. I did that with the nurse when I had to drink barium. We talked about when I was little, and she guessed right away when I said I threw up a lot when I was little, she said "are you lactose intolerant?" and I was like "O_o yes..." lol. Is it weird that I went from being scared to enjoying being there?
It's the same for needles. Granted, I still can't watch them go in my skin, but the tiny amount of pain feels good now. I think it's because I haven't cut in almost a few months. I don't mind if someone else hurts me, because I'm not doing it to myself. I don't know if that makes any sense. If I do need to have my gallbladder taken out, and I don't have the pain anymore, I'm going to miss it. I don't know why I feel I need to hurt, and I'm sick of whining about being sick. I've decided to stop. no more whining. If I whine in future postings, tell me.
Anyway, I guess I'm going to get started on my final, either that or play the Sims 3 until my tablet arrives.
I MISS YOU AND HOPE YOUR DAY GOES WELL!
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Love,
Your Silly Jenny Sister :P
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