If you stay, you have to quit college??! NO! don't stay... bettering yourself is better than being someone's property until trust is relinquished. I mean look at this example, what if he doesn't want to trust you again and all that stuff has just gone to shit.
No, you deserve to better yourself. You are more than just a housewife with a daughter, you need to make your life better so that Claire can have a better life.
So What if Steven is there, big deal. Yes, he's the start in all of this, but you wanted to go to college for you, not because of some guy. Matt may think that's the main reason, and it probably is now, because Steven makes you feel good, because you have that emotional connection with him that Matt didn't really help establish with you.
Yes, Matt is also afraid to lose you, but think about it, it's kind of his fault. He didn't want to go to therapy with you. He didn't want to sort through his problems, in order to help you with yours. He didn't support you emotionally and that's all there is. Relationships can't exist if there is no emotional connection there.
I think you are doing the right thing here, just get out of there and try it. Matt and you can work on it from a distance. Please don't worry too much about it. You are doing something good. You are allowed to be a little selfish.
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Update on my world in this desert:
Tom and I didn't take that new job, and as soon as I get more money somehow, I'll get you that tablet and myself one too. The job is basically grunt work. It destroyed Tyler, and he's pretty physically fit. Plus it had all these Mexicans who didn't even try to speak an ounce of English.
Yeah, I'm not hanging out with the slum of the desert. I'm not up to destroying myself for money.
I think I'm getting slightly better with this cold. It doesn't rattle when I lay down anymore. My nose is pretty stuffed up, and I haven't ate much lately, because I get fuller faster now. One stuffed cheese shell is enough to fill me up. D:
I have to get rid of my "love handles", and when I do, I guess I'll look like Emily De Ravin. That's what Tom said anyway. I wish I could get better, so I can work out again. I'm so tired all the time. Work wears me out all the time. I mean half-way through my shift I nearly pass out on the register. Mostly out of sheer boredom but also because I'm so tired.
That's all there really is going on in my life... nothing exciting.
I miss you terribly and can't wait to see you this summer. Maybe You and Claire can come bowling with me and Auzzy. :) He can teach Claire how to bowl. lol
I love you sister from another mister.
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